Holidays are just not what they used to be. I used to get keyed up, ready, happy, decorate, stressed but doing it. now I don't actually even care. I am just looking forward to feeling like things are routine, which will never happen, if the past years are any example.
A friend of Eric's is in the hospital with a failing liver. Eric's aunt died of cirrhosis of the liver. She drank herself to death. There are too many of us who think that life is just handed to us, that we don't need to treat it like it is a gift. I remember in college my friend - great of me, I don't really remember her name. She was from Taiwan, I couldn't really understand her much of the time, and she seemed to really like me. In perfect style, I didn't understand why she liked me so much ...
One night she said she wanted to make me dinner, so she made me this amazing Thai dish, something I never would have had in a restaurant. She said she had never really cooked before, but whipped up this amazing meal. Before, I stopped to get a coffee... she said "why do you do that? you don't need that." (it was just coffee, for gods sake!) "treat yourself nice" she said. Your body is to be respected, treated well, .... I take that a bit further now, and though I don't live it like I should - I understand that life is a gift. life should not be wasted because it can be taken from you at a moments notice. don't fuck it up. and that is what we do - we think we need things, we hide behind things, we avoid things, when we should be celebrating what we have.
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