Keep the false alive

I think there is a period of time, later, that you start fighting with yourself. I am starting to feel like I just can't do what I used to do, I don't have the energy. But I want to look like I used to. And I sort df do look like I used to. But I want to keep the falsity alive. Sure I am young... Just look at me. I am someone that other people want to be "when they get to be my Age".