I see that my last post was last year in May - and that post was only the addition of the GRACE video call to action. Before that my posts were far away, things were good, normal, etc. I am not sure where my head was at that last post... in May I think things may have started to go downhill. It is pretty blurry...
I think I may try to start up this post again. I think so much about what I could say, how I can capture the things I don't want to forget, even through the sadness. I think sadness is somewhat of a warm blanket - I don't want to lose the fact that loss is a terrible thing. I don't want to fully move on from it. Every time I think about my lovely friend, I want to be sad that I don't have her anymore. It can't be consuming, but a measure of pain helps to show me just how important she was to me, my life, and my family and hers. She told another friend, when she could barely talk anymore "don't be sad", but I think that we should be sad. Death is a sad thing - and loss is a terribly hard blow. it is a testament to the impact she made on so many of us. I will keep this going, I will try.
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